For my Mama

I would like to take the time to talk about my mother, CHURON. Everyday I watch her I am amazed.  She does so much for everyone around her and takes little time for herself. She is caring and thoughtful and is always willing to listen and give advice. I am so grateful to be blessed with such a wonderful mother and friend whom I can always rely on. She has helped me through so much and has been my biggest cheerleader throughout my life.  She has never given up on me, and she continues to believe in me. She is always there to pick me up when I am down.  I hope one day I can become like the woman she is. I look up to her and I love her.
(Also she has these really sexy new glasses and she looks HOT in them. rawrrr!!)

I. LOVE. YOU.

Scuba!!

This semester I took a scuba diving course and as of yesterday I am now officially certified!! Over the weekend I went to Bonneville Sea Base in Grantsville to do my 5 open water dives.  Sea base is a natural salt water spring that they have turned into a small ocean.  There were all sorts of saltwater fish, 2 stingrays, and 5 sharks!  On my last dive I was able to pet one of the sharks, feel its dorsal fin and even hug him!! He was as big as me but he just sat there as I played with him, it was incredible. I was expecting him to feel squishy and blubbery like a dolphin, but he felt like a rock hard snake.  It was one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had. 

Just two of the many different types of fish that we fed underwater.

There were two stingrays, one was named Irwin. (poor Steve)

And my favorite part...the two huge nurse sharks.  They were breathtaking.

I now have a bigger itch to see the world, especially underwater. I must convince the parents we need a vacation. 

haha

sad

We nearly made it two years without a single seizure.  I can't describe the sadness within me, I feel so helpless.  I want to take his pain away and make everything okay, but I can't.

Solitude

I enjoy being alone, and these quotes describe this need more eloquently than I ever could.


I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude.  We are for the most part more lonely when we go abroad among men than when we stay in our chambers.  ~Henry David Thoreau, "Solitude," Walden, 1854


Language... has created the word "loneliness" to express the pain of being alone.  And it has created the word "solitude" to express the glory of being alone.  ~Paul Johannes Tillich, The Eternal Now


What a commentary on civilization, when being alone is being suspect; when one has to apologize for it, make excuses, hide the fact that one practices it - like a secret vice.  ~Anne Morrow Lindbergh


With some people solitariness is an escape not from others but from themselves.  For they see in the eyes of others only a reflection of themselves.  ~Eric Hoffer


Nowhere can man find a quieter or more untroubled retreat than in his own soul.  ~Marcus Aurelius


Loneliness can be conquered only by those who can bear solitude.  ~Paul Tillich


I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself, than be crowded on a velvet cushion.  ~Henry David Thoreau


And my personal favorite...


When we cannot bear to be alone, it means we do not properly value the only companion we will have from birth to death - ourselves.  ~Eda LeShan